Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Chewing Things Over...

Got my article on Peter Ridsdale (see www.sportingo.com) published in the letters section of the Yorkshire Post last week, just spotted it, I'm on a roll, what with Cottingham Adult Ed asking me to do another 10wk Creative Writing course in January and getting some coverage in the local paper for the RSPCA it's all good right now. Nothing much has changed on the love life front though and for a bit of a laugh I came up with this tonight to amuse my friend in a random email:-

An ordinary Leeds chav underneath, he just cannot help it!!!!

Lemon colour barnet brightens up the pitch

Atrocious hair

Nutter - but its all good I like him that way


Sexy...in my humble opinion (stop sniggering at the back!!!)

Mad as a hatter but who cares

Impossible to stop him picking up yellow cards, they attract him like flies to jam!

Toon Army don't understand a word he says..probably

Hilariously grumpy at times

Monday, November 26, 2007

Fighting Talk

I dont know why but I felt compelled to write something to Smudge, the weekends football results had me chewing over a few things...

"Dear Alan
What a disastrous weekend!! I felt buoyed by the prospect of doing another 10wk creative writing course in January and the lovely, positive feedback, I relished marking the work and setting things up for another session, things couldn't be better.
But oh no, the football brought me crashing down from the dreamy clouds! Damn it!! Leeds and Newcastle both screwed it up and I'm left wondering whether this is just a blip, lack of confidence or you're (yet again!) being utterly wasted and ground down to a shadow of your former self. You played well a few weeks back and seemed to be settling in at Newcastle. What happened? I know you're capable of great things and I totally believe you'll turn a corner, but I do worry you're not being given the opportunity to show what you do best whilst you're (in my opinion) playing the "team workhorse" role, otherwise known as "utility man" I know you well and am sure you will rise above all of this an een stronger character. Be strong, be positive and stay true to yourself. You can always count on my support"

That really sums up my relationship with Alan. Whatever happened, happens or is to happen, there's always me there somewhere. Regardless of whether I'm an hour away, five hours away or the other side of the world to him, I won't ever change the way I feel about him. He's been a total pillock, a boring sod, frustrating fucking lunatic etc etc but I have stood firm and am probably the sort of woman who would risk death to drag him out of a house fire even if it meant cutting my legs off to get up to him. What he has done to deserve such a superwoman as me I do not know. Must have been a saint in a previous life. I don't think he'll ever grasp or appreciate how willing I am to take flak and be totally humiliated just to support him. Theres alot of people out there in football who cannot stand him and don't see the point in him but through it all I put up with it, grumble, swear and write poetry and hope that tomorrow's a better day. They do say behind every man there's an even greater woman and I'd like to say that applies to me.

Saturday, November 17, 2007

I couldn't and didn't sleep last night...

I didn't sleep last night

I didn't sleep last night

A gurgling roaring boiler gave me a fright

Freezing cold I held onto the covers oh so tight

Time goes so slowly when you're all alone

But I can't moan

I have lots of things going on right now

I shouldn't be a miserable cow

I wish he knew how much I cared

Maybe he's scared

Just as much as I am

Maybe he doesn't give a damn

One way or another we have to settle things once and for all

A text, a letter, a meet up, even a call

One way or another someone has to wave the white flag

I don't want to be a WAG I don't want the latest handbag

I just want him that's all, just fishgobbed likeable cheeky Al

To me he's more than just a good pal

What can I do where do I turn?

When will I learn?

Thinking about it over and over gets you nowhere fast

Nor does going over the past

Onwards and upwards keep plodding on and hope

I am able to cope

Just need to keep smiling and working hard

One day life will deal me an ace card

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Reality Check

I was going to write about how busy I'd been scooping up smelly cat poo, washing dishes, laminating, typing up, correcting and marking work, working out at the gym and keeping the house in order, but nothing can be as hard as the job the volunteers, supporters and workers at the Tumani Home of Hope in Mombasa, Kenya, do. I have always been a keen supporter of Comic Relief from being just five years old, but when I saw the Jeremy Kyle Show's mini documentary on a home run by a retired lady named Joan, who saw children walking the streets because they'd been abandoned by the families and friends as they had AIDS and felt she had to do something. Some time later she went about setting up an orphanage/place of refuge for children aged anything from just months old to school age.

There are lots of charities worthy of supporting but this particularly had an impression on me as the problems these children had been burdened with and the issues their society couldn't deal with and still can't deal with, are so easily prevented or in some cases solved, by education, the community pulling together and the wool pulled from people's eyes. Its so sad in the 21st century that there are still Third World countries out there where children, who are meant to be the future, are given a death sentence because of something they had no say in. They didn't ask to be born and they certainly didn't ask to be infected with HIV or AIDS. I could go on and on but you get the drift. Anyway I'll come to the point of this short blog entry, I received an email update as I am a supporter and I give them a small donation a month and it told of visits to an Elephant Sanctuary, extensions to the school building, it was very heartwarming. The most touching thing was Elizabeth, who was very animated and sweet when Jeremy Kyle met her, but couldn't hear very well at all. She has now been fitted with hearing aids which have been paid for by donations.

Something as basic as that will probably enhance and change her life forever, it will also impact on the children around her who will be able to communicate with her more and she'll feel much more confident and happy. Believe me I know, I'm a hearing aid wearer myself and when I have a heavy cold or one that doesn't work, I feel a bit cut off. So when people wonder whether giving to charities like this is worth it or whether their money actually gets put to good use, this is a small, but very timely reminder of why Africa still needs us. If we can't help to educate the elders into using condoms and being more aware, we can give hope to the children left behind by giving them a dignified few years or whatever they've got left.

I cannot stop thinking about Alan and how sad I feel that I probably screwed my only chance of finding true love when he left Leeds and I kind of went off the rails with my attitude towards him w hen he was at Man U, but when I hear about the children in the home and how small little things like day trips, new paint pots light up their world as if the most magical thing in the whole world had just happened it hits you...and reading poem penned by innocent, sweet children who have no idea of the burden they carry gives you another slap in the face. The fact of the matter is, I can't really complain about my life when I'm sat typing on a nice computer, sat in a lovely house, in a peaceful, safe environment with fresh water, good food and a comfortable bed. There's something to be said for a little reality check every now and again!
Until next time. Goodnight.

Up To All Sorts..

Last night I answered and negotiated a few cat phone calls, most of them positive, I'm glad to say. My best friend Alex came round for a bit, we chatted about how to use the AGA, her new boyfriend, Creative Writing, cats and TV, One Eyed Jack was very cute and muscled in on the fun and alternated between the two of us for fuss and cuddles. My Christmas cake is wonderful, if I may say so myself, I got it out of the oven just after 8.30pm after just over 10hrs of cooking(!!!) it is fantastic, really moist, smells nice, laced with lots of fruit and alcohol, it should be a very tasty Christmas offering. I'm so pleased it turned out alright. I think I will definitely attempt a Christmas pudding with the AGA as this has turned out so well. I think the hot but steady heat helped to seal in the flavour and not burn the top.

Today I've been tidying up, feeding cats, cleaning up One Eyed Jack's poo present dolloped on the floor next to Dad's whisky cupboard, washing dishes, answering the phone (thankfully so far it hasn't rung too much today) working on my 'Newspaper and Magazine Writing' session, designing and typing up handouts on 'Analysing Newspapers and Magazines' 'What are Newspapers and Magazines?' and 'Common Newspaper and Magazine Terms' I tend to get them to fill in these handouts individually then swap with the neighbour, they then read each others out and debate the topics on the handout. I've managed to work out how to use the projector to put things like 'Aims of The Session' on to an interactive white board so that also gives them something more interesting to work with than just me rabbiting on.


My day's gone pretty swimmingly, any fears of being engulfed by tidal typhoons (apparently the East Coast of England was meant to be hit by extreme flash floods ...all we've had is cold winds and dark gloomy clouds....) or bum numbing boredom were quickly quashed by a titantic Tyne-Wear battle between Sunderland and Newcastle (Smudger did his usual superhero act, this time from the deep end of defence - ooh look another water reference...saving Newcastle fans from drowning their sorrows in too much Brown Ale and showing lots of heart no not Ian Harte I said HEART oh yeah another ex Leeds player in the Premiership? Bit of a rare thing that..not!!!!!! Every club (seemingly) has to have at least one.......) I utterly adore Alan everything he does, I just cannot stop savouring and slobbering over every little detail, sod Ann Summers sex toys I think Sky Plus remote control being able to rewind, pause and fast forward is the sexiest gadget ever ;) and of course he was in all his HD glory *swoon* Tsk some women are so easily pleased!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I managed to prize my eyes away from the not so peroxide one a couple of times to laminate work, chat to Stuart who came in to wash his car in the drive, check on the cats, tidy up and deal with RSPCA calls. Loved up yes, lazy no....... I also did a Delia (another football reference....clever eh..) and made my own vegetable soup for tea which I am going to enjoy with a large dollop of trashy TV including The X Factor and Strictly Come Dancing very shortly. Got cat dishes to wash up from tea and the remnants of my tea at some point but I think I'm going to chill out for a while :-) Damn I wish that certain blond bloke would turn up on me........

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Going For It!!! :-)

Had a great session. Sue the Creative Studies coordinator came to check up on how we've improved on the first time she visited and said it was "brilliant" and all the things she'd asked me to improve on or work on were "very good..no problem at all" and she's taken one of my ideas on feedback (getting people's comments and arranging them on an OHT with WordArtetc) to use for something or other so I felt very flattered, she said "if you carry on like this you'll be doing a really brilliant course you don't need me here I'll let you get on with it" and she left me to it for the rest of the session. So that was a relief.

And YAY the projector worked for projecting the objectives and feedback on the whiteboard. All in all a very positive session. Had lots of fun with poetry - they had a mystery bag to pick an object or a task out of the bag and Howard picked out my photo of Alan and I. He didn't realise it was me. The poem he wrote was really sweet and he suggested that they had been to a footy match and were just off for a meal together or something or other and I was going really red. I was forced to confess the meaning behind the picture and everyone found that really hilarious. So all is well in the world. What next for me? World domination next perhaps??? Ha ha. Mum and Dad go on holiday tomorrow afternoon so I'm getting my head round what to do with regards to cats and RSPCA stuff, getting organised. I think I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet to be honest. But hopefully Alex and Becky etc will come round for a takeaway or something at some point.

I'm really pleased today has turned out so brilliantly, I'm really getting my teeth into life, letting the ideas flow and prodding gently towards a brighter future now I've got signed up to do the preparing to teach City and Guilds certificate, going on another Skills For Life trip next week taking them bowling, I'm doing more board writing and almost taking the second tutor role on in the Wednesday class, I feel respected, valued and overall, very smug, I'm a wanted woman!!! Bring it on.....I felt a bit low and bored in the last few days of my break away to see Maria, I was chomping at the bit for fun, freedom and free will and Adult Ed allows me to have fun, mix with different people, immerse myself in ideas and live life. Its a shame there aren't many people who know half of what goes on and the opportunities that are available for young people wanting to be creative or different in their career. Its rewarding, challenging and makes you think. I couldn't ever be an accountant or a surveyor, we need them but I like to debate things, think about different ideas and kick concepts around with lots of arty, creative people. It really is an interesting place to learn and support people.

Just hope One Eyed Jack behaves himself whilst Mum's away (He's a partially deaf, one eyed purring machine who doesn't always want to use the litter tray for every toilet trip..hmmmmm...)