Twenty Five In A Few Days Time - Will I grow old alone?

If I could....

If I could reach you I'd hold your hand tight
I would never let it go from morning til night
If I could tell you whats on my mind
Somehow all those loose ends would miraculously bind
If I could see you one more time at the car park
The world would not seem as dark
Light would radiate from your smile
I'd ring every single person on speed dial
Tell them that there is a God
That I'm no longer a miserable sod
Convince every cynic including myself
That you don't have to be on the shelf
There really is someone out there for every one
It really isn't a con
If I could tell you what my last thought is every night
How I cry myself to sleep and hold on tight
To memories I should have buried or filed under 'spam'
If I could say I don't give a damn
I'd be a complete idiot and a fraud
Sometimes I think you're bored
Of me rambling on and making empty promises here and there
If I could tell you just how much I care
I think I'd give you a heart attack with the shock
My emotions are in the dock
I'm guilty guv'nor I can't breathe
I chose to leave
I couldn't cope
I backed away when there was so much hope
My life line has been cut to a shred
Why the hell aren't you in my bed?
I wish I could be here with you tonight
Remember those days when I was as high as a kite?
Memories I cling on to very tight
I can't let them go as much as I should
I don't know if I could
If I could tell you whats in my heart
Never again would we be apart.