Insomnia Insanity

I'm struggling to sleep. So much on my mind. Off to Edinburgh in the Easter holidays with an old friend and a couple of her male friends on a last minute deal. Looking forward to it but it's suddenly made me panic about deadlines, work to catch up on or finish before I go away......I am making progress and there's the 'carrot' of cocktails and street entertainments to bite eagerly...just wish I wasn't so damned good at getting my knickers in a twist about assignments that I'm clearly capable of completing I just get these nagging doubts or procrastinate unnecessarily!
With an observation coming up next week, the trials and tribulations of helping my brother pick a rescue dog and attempting to reignite my love of the gym now I'm (hopefully!) over the viruses, colds, coughs and general ailments that have blighted my sunny outlook on life.

As for Leeds - Wembley awaits......with baited breath.. (The less said about Mr Smith's woes at Newcastle the better. It feels like the Man U situation all over again i.e. 'I told you so' syndrome strikes again!!! ;-)

Finally getting to grips with oneself?

I have been struggling with ill health in recent weeks, had a horrible viral infection, troublesome learners and a few tutor spats I was stuck in the middle of.......
But, slowly but surely I seem to be coming out of this a stronger person. I'm learning to stick up for myself, ignore the doom mongers and do what I want to do. I no longer feel shackled by listening to or heeding the advice of hearsay or gossipmongers I am being more honest and upfront about my feelings. I know I have to stay calm and strong at work and show people just what I'm made of, I CAN do this. I know Mr Right, I've met him, let him slip through my fingers but I'll see him again soon if I just sit back and let career take centre stage whilst things brew away...
The key is not to panic, do things because I believe in it and I want to do it, rather than plod on to the point of insanity. Too often I work until very late at night or stay up to an unearthly hour either watching mindless TV or churning over and over the negatives or nagging doubts in my head.
I have raised over £190 for Comic Relief dressed as a clown for the week, gained good marks in my Module 1 assignment, had positive feedback by and large, from my learners. I am going places, I just have to keep believing in myself.

Onwards and upwards!!!

P.S. How brilliant was the Apprentice last night?! Already got people bitching, backstabbing and bruised!!!!!!